So where to start? Let's see...I'll begin with I'm dating and have an amazing boyfriend. And let me tell you there are 9,823,487,853 opinions on this. Some great, and others really crappy and out of line. I thought that keeping my private life private was the way to go to keep the talking to a minimum. Whoa! Was I wrong! It seems that if you try to keep people out of your business they work even harder to find a way in. I've learned that people are insanely curious about the life of a widow. We're just like you, we just cry more. Please don't get me wrong I'm fine with being asked about my life. It's the gossiping, and people thinking they know so much when they know nothing I can't stand. If you have a question come to ME, not anyone else.
Back to the bf. If you've read my posts before you'll remember this one Get your tissues ready where I posted the letter that Zack, (Cody's best friend) wrote to be read at the funeral since he was deployed still in Afghanistan. Well ladies and gents like so many of you predicted would happen has. Zack and I are dating. Yay!!! Maybe I won't be the lonely old widow that hates her neighbors after all! I get two completely different responses from this.
1. "That's great that you've been able to find happiness again, and who better than a man that Cody trusted to love and care for you guys."
And this one that makes me want to run them over with a bus repeatedly...
2." How can you do that? How can he do that? I just couldn't do what you're doing. I just don't understand. How can Zack look at you and see anything but Cody's wife?" ect. ect. jab jab
When I get response 1. I just want to hug whoever it is, stranger or friend and cry. With response 2. I feel a slap to the face is needed. I don't care if you get it or not. I'm the one dating Zack, not you. Why do people think their thoughts and opinions matter so much? Even better, did I ask how MY life makes you feel? I know for certain I didn't. I have way more important things to worry myself sick over than someones approval.
This is what I know for sure. Zack is one of a kind. He has a heart of gold. I tell him all the time it takes a special man to do what he's doing. I mean seriously would you deal with my crazy widow ways, unnecessary drama from protesters of our relationship, all while helping raise the monster (a.k.a. Colten)? I don't know why he does, but I'm so thankful for him. Plus! Colten LOVES Zack, they're two peas in a pod.
As I've said before, I like to believe that Cody has a hand in the choosing of the man that will be in our lives. Happiness and hope are creeping back into our home.